A celebration of sorts

Today was fun. I went out with Elaine Esther and jayanta to celebrate elaine’s and my birthday. While it was a simple celebration, I really enjoyed the meet up. Just a tad disappointing coz we were all so tired after work!

Tomorrow is boon’s birthday celebration and I hope it’s enjoyable too! We will have so much fun!

On a bad note, I just sent in another email to outlet for our refund, and still no response as of yet. I’m seriously considering to go right down to their office and complain.

I’m tired now. Enough of the ramblings. Goodnight world.

Love,
Tricia

Independently me

I just got out one of the most horrible conference calls ever. Totally not equipped with the right information to contribute. Felt like a waste of time.

Wanted to find someone to pour my woes to. But I can give up on that. I will just grit my teeth and move on.

It’s not like I’m a needy person. I don’t think I’m that clingy too. It’s just frustrating that I can’t even have ten minutes of someone’s attention and time. If I ever knew that someone close to me was unhappy, I would have stopped my work and dedicated the next ten minutes of my life to him/her.

But it’s just too bad that a ten minutes lost, is a ten minutes loss. That ten minutes that you missed out? Never again. I don’t think I was unreasonable. If you think fml, she’s starting her nonsense again, then so be it. Just because you have a shitty job doesn’t mean I have to suffer for it. I seriously believe that if you have made a choice about a job, a house or some major decisions, you would have thought the pros and cons through. And you know that when you took up that offer or signed on the dotted line, this was going to be it! So cut the crap about the work because I believe you made an informed decision of what you were getting into.

If it’s so hard to get ten minutes of your life, tell me how much your hourly charges are and I’ll pay for the ten minutes where I can have your attention when I needed it most. I’m not some attention seeking bitch. I’m just an ordinary girl who needed some comforting when things don’t work out.

Well wad can I say. The simplest things in life are often the hardest to achieve.

Move on Tricia, as the world does.

When push comes to shove

It is at times like this that you wonder, “what the hell is this person trying to do?!”

In my line of work, the kinds of people that I meet are countless. Needless to say, the kinds of candidates I’ve met are countless. But it still never ceases to amaze me how some of the candidates are able to pull off the kind of things they do.

Today was no exception. This candidate applied for the position and her expected salary was 1000 more than her current. We tried our best and made her an offer which she negotiated. When we couldn’t meet her expectations and wanted to drop her, to our surprise, she was willing to back down and accept our offer. So when I wanted to meet up with her to sign the letter of appointment, and she told me that she will only be able to start in July when it’s only march now, you cannot imagine how frustrated i felt. The reason that she gave was that she’s going to get her bonus in April and will be unable to tender before that or she’ll lose the bonus. She also has a two month notice period which we were well aware of, but it seems that now we will have to wait an additional one and a half months for her on top of the two months. Is that fair to us as a company? For something that she told us last minute?

Yes while some of you may say that the bonus is a reward for her past performance, and she should get it coz she deserves it, then my answer back to you is – then don’t start looking for a job till you get it. If not you have to be prepared to sacrifice it.

And yes she has the right to ask for 1000 more than her current to see where she stands in the market. And if there’s any company out there who is willing to pay for that jump, then good for you! Go ahead and change your job. But if not, be prepared to remain in your current job. Why put yourself in a position whereby the company is unable to meet your expected, and you are half hearted about their offer, and you negotiate and think about it, and now give them a less than good impression of you? If you are determined that 1k more is a more than enough pull factor for to jump, then don’t waver and jump only when someone offers you that.

And truth be told, I have seen the candidate’s resume “floating” around in the jobseekers areana for a while now. There were a few other positions which i posted and she responded, knowing that the salary range we were offering is not within her range. To me it seems that she’s a little desperate to change her job.

There are things that most Jobseekers think that we recruiters do not know, or are unaware of, but let me tell you this. We know and we are aware. Believe me, the world is very small. And Singapore is not a very big city to begin with. it’s how we want to make use of the information we have.

Ultimately I’m not angry with the candidate. Because the world is like that. We have people like that. I’m just wondering why. Why can’t they think it through and be more responsible. It’s not always that you need to sacrifice something to gain another. But when the time comes that you do, please be more generous about it and note that not everything in life is smooth sailing. That is a fact.

Love,
Tricia

You’ve fallen for me

My current most favourite song:

You’ve fallen for me – Jung Yong Hwa

In English

Everything about us started coincidentally
At first I didn’t know that this was going to be love but to think that this was actually love
My heart keeps on going thump thump
When you look at me, you keep on smiling without you even noticing,
And before you even realized, you started to fall for me

You’ve fallen for me, fallen for me, you melted because of my sweet love
You’ve fallen for me, fallen for me, you’ve fallen for the look in my eyes
See my eyes, you’ve fallen for me
See my eyes, you’ve fallen for me

Guess love always comes like faith/destiny
As if a sudden rain has passed by and soaked me, to think that this was love
When you close your eyes, the face keeps on appearing
When you notice your face with blushes, before your feelings realized,
You’ve fallen in love with me

You’ve fallen for me, fallen for me, you melted because of my sweet love
You’ve fallen for me, fallen for me, you’ve fallen for the look in my eyes
See my eyes, you’ve fallen for me
See my eyes, you’ve fallen for me

I’ll also confess to you I love you I love you, Now I shall confess to you that I love you
I also love you love you my feelings are telling you that I love you
See your eyes, please only look at me
See your eyes, I love you
(See my eyes, you’ve fallen for me) Even if this moment passes by I’ll love you forever
(See my eyes, you’ve fallen for me) Without even realizing, you have fallen for me

In Korean:

uyeo-nhido keureohke

urin shijak dwaeh-nnabwah
cheo-eumen sarangil-keora-go
kkumedo molla-nneun-de
keuge sarangil-jurya

shimjangi mag jakkuman dugeundugeun georigo
nal bomyeon misoman heureu-go
ni mamdo moreuge
nal sarang-ha-ge dwehn-geoya

neon nae-ge ba-nhae-sseo ba-nhae-sseo
tal-komhan naesarange no-ga-beor-yeo-sseo
neon nae-ge ba-nhae-sseo ba-nha-esseo
hwahng-ho-rhan nae nunbite chwii-hae-beor-yeosseo
See my eyes
neon nae-ge ppa-jyeo-sseo
See my eyes
neon nae-ge ba-nhae-sseo

sarangeun neul kab-chagi
un-myeong-cheoreom onabwah
eoneunal chajaon sonagi cheoreom
nal jeoksyeonohko keuge sarangil-jurya

nunkamado jakkuman mundeungmundeuk tteo-olla
ppal-kaejin eol-ku-reul bol-ttae-myeon
nimamdo moreuge
nal sarang-ha-ge dwehn-geoya

neon nae-ge ba-nhae-sseo ba-nhae-sseo
tal-komhan naesarange no-ga-beor-yeo-sseo
neon nae-ge ba-nhae-sseo ba-nha-esseo
hwahng-ho-rhan nae nunbite chwii-hae-beor-yeosseo
See my eyes
neon nae-ge ppa-jyeo-sseo
See my eyes
neon nae-ge ba-nhae-sseo

nado neol sarang-hae sarang-hae
ije neol sarang-handa gobaekhal-keoya
nado neol sarang-hae sarang-hae
nae mami sarang-handa ma-rha-go isseo
See your eyes
naman bara-bwah-jwo
See your eyes
nan neoreul sarang-hae
See your eyes
ishi-gani chinado yeongwonhi
See my eyes
nado moreuge neon nae-ge ba-nhae-sseo

 

Love,

Tricia

Cute, sweet love

I’m currently so into this Korean show now. I don’t know the name of the show, but it’s about cute, funny love.

The leading couple in the show makes it so watchable coz they are so cute together! The songs are nice and I can just feel their emotions watching the show! When they are happy I’m
Happy! When they quarrel I’m sad. When the guy does something sweet for the girl I’m happy too!

Maybe it’s these kinda funny romance on tv that makes people have certain expectations about love. While watching the show and certain sweet scenes, I can’t help but wonder and think why it doesn’t happen to me. Even if it does happen to me, why does it seem so different from tv.

In the show, the guy protects the girl and plays the guitar and sings to her. Although I too wish for something like that to happen to me, but I know it’s just a tv show after all. But it’s just so sweet and funny! It made me feel like falling in love again. The first stage of falling in love is still the sweetest I would say.

But having said so, I just had a talk with the bf. The poor boy’s still working late. We had a nice short chat and I hung up feeling happy. I hope he was too. I guess in our own way, we have our own simple funny love between us.

Maybe when we have more time to go out together, the first love feeling will be back! Hee!

Love,
Tricia

An understatement for Overworked

It’s about 2.30am and I can’t believe I’m still sitting here and going through resumes.

One thing’s for sure, i’m certainly glad DND is over. It was taking up too much of my time. The late nights, the number of times i’ve brought my lappy home and even over the new year. argh. I hate it when work piles up like that. even though i’ve been really efficient in office. It saps up a lot of my energy, and I can’t even imagine how the bf does it. with the late nights and all. I was sleeping almost at 12am every night for the past week, and the next day at work, i’m so lethargic and tired out! kudos to all struggling auditors out there.

even though I’m bringing work home over the weekends and most weekdays, i don’t really focus well.

Because my bed and my room and my home is my resting place and comfort zone. and I procrastinate, telling myself that I deserve a 5 minutes break as it’s the weekends, it’s after work blah blah blah. and the 5 minutes turn to 10, which turns to 15, and before I know it, 1 hour is gone! and I still don’t feel like doing work. sigh.

It’s worse when you know you’re not as highly paid as others around you. but the amount of work you do.. tremendous.

alrighty. got to go now. more shortlisting to be done.

love,

Tricia

 

The pursuit for love

Last night I gathered with my ex colleagues from KT. I must say I had a lot of fun. It never fails to amaze me that despite the short time that we were working together, we had a great bond of working relationship and friendship. We clicked just like that, and I’m really happy to have met them in my life.

This brings back memories ad I wish that we could have continued the fun, laughter and joy working together. The office now is pretty quiet, and we’re all just concentrating on our jobs at hand. But nonetheless, life goes on as always.

Whilst back on the cab home with one of my colleagues, we began talking and she was telling me how she met a guy online through a social dating network. She was telling me how the last few dates went, and also how the guy was like. And I must say, I really admire her courage, to pursue her own happiness. She recently just got out of a sucky relationship, and to even join in a dating network and go out with someone she met there couldn’t have been easy.

Thinking back on this, if it were me, I’m really not sure if I could ever do that. I would probably go out more and rely on my network of friends to meet mr right. But then again, I’ll never know coz I’ve not had this problem before. I’m really lucky in that sense. But I thought I’d just like to mention this here just because she’s taken a big step forward to move on and pursuit her own happiness.

Jia you!

Love,
Tricia

Ha.. Who would have thought

Ha. And you thought the dragon year would be a brand new start. I couldn’t have been more wrong.

The tears may threaten to fall, but they will not, and they shall not. After so long, it was the first time ever, I seriously considered us. The words that I was told, was hurting as usual. Wad does it mean to be together?

Yes sacrifices were made from both ends, but it wasn’t a competition of who made the most sacrifices. To me being together simply means to share my joy, happiness and sadness with the one other who can understand me, improve me and challenge me. Maybe I was wrong.

Accommodating? I have never thought that way. Have you thought of the times when I accommodated you? Or perhaps, you were simply too busy to see? To be aware? And to appreciate? But it doesn’t matter to me. I don’t keep track of how accommodating I’ve been and I even don’t care if you were simply too busy or too insensitive to notice. It’s simply because I was happy to do so, and it made you happy.

Busy? It’s not a reason for being the way you are. The way you behave. There were many a times when I was frustrated with work, and I brought that frustration home. I was wrong. I made mum unhappy and I knew that it wasn’t her fault. To what extend do you draw the line between work and personal?

From that time onwards, I’ve learnt that you NEVER bring work home because your family, they don’t bring their problems to you when you work. So why should you bring work back to them?

When I get home from work, my heart feels happier, and my footsteps are lighter. Home is a place where I seek comfort and solace, where the frustration and problems at work will never touch me there.

And it’s funny how I missed my stop at yishun and ended up at sembawang.
Ironic huh.

I can’t be waiting all the time. The hurt festers itself in the words that cut across. Many a times I have mentioned, you don’t say things that cause deep hurt to others and regret them later. You can’t retract words like how you would retract a physical item that was given out. A damage done is a damage done.

Well I tread on because I believe I am strong. The sadness that I feel now will bring me down, but believe in yourself and believe in your heart. A bright future awaits.

Love,
Tricia

All in Day’s work… not!

I’ve been so busy since I don’t know when.

well actually I do know. I was busy since the week before cny. and now, after cny and nearing to Valentine’s day, i’m still busy.

I define busy as having to bring my lappy home almost everyday and working till late at night when you are really really efficient and productive during office hours. Yes i am that effective and efficient.

It’s not like I like to complain about having to work overtime. I mean who doesn’t? at some point in time in life we all do it. It just sucks to be not compensated adequately for that and to see the people around you not working hard.

I like to work in an environment where I can see the people around me working hard. That motivates me to work as hard as them, or even harder. But the way I see it… sigh. i don’t like to complain about my manager, but here goes.

My manager seldom brings her lappy home, and seldom works late in the office. The reason being she’s pregnant and has a family of two small kids when she goes back home. I know I know, many of you will say that even after she goes home, her work as a mother and wife continues. yes yes yes. but then again, is it fair that by being young and single I have to work so bloody hard to compromise for someone with a bigger family than me? I have a family too and I have things that I wanna do when I get off work. I wouldn’t have felt so if I can see that she is making the effort to clear her work.

With the amount of backlog she has, I don’t understand why she doesn’t bring her lappy home and clear it once and for all. Instead of coming to work every single day and having to prioritze the work in front of her because the amount of work is stacking up and she has to make a choice of doing the more important ones first with the limited amount of time she has. It really is a vicous cycle as she leaves the not so important work behind, and by the time she clears the important work, the not so important becomes her priority to clear off as the delay causes it to become and important piece of work. and then even when she comes in to office to work, she has like so many meetings, that it really is hard for her to reply back to all her e-mails. Then, the amount of backlog just grows and grows, and I can foresee that she will be busy all year around.

And guess who has to help to clear the backlog.

I really don’t mind to help, but everyone has their own part to play. I mean if she made the effort, and the work’s still too much, i really wouldn’t mind lending a helping hand. But if because of your incompetency that piles on the extra work for which i am not very well compensated for, then obviously I will feel  a little upset at that.

sigh sigh SIGH.

anyway, we shall see how it goes. I really miss having maggie and kelvin around. I feel more like a team with them around. and we were happier too. but then again. my manager has taught me some stuff with the experience that she brings in. but it’s just so excruciating.. the wait to garner all knowledge and experience.

and I know it’s random, but gotta go shortlist some resumes. ta!

Love,

Tricia

A lonely Journey

It is at times like this that you feel that you are all alone.

You come alone to this world, you die alone from this world.

All that matters is you. you solve your own issues, you face your own problems. you just have to depend on yourself. Rather than hope and wait for some help along the way, you just have to rely on yourself. why expect anything and make yourself feel so disappointed when in the end nothing materializes at all?

It’s such a bad day today. And I can’t help but need to rant it all out since nobody seems to be free to listen.

i hate some of the employees in the office. because they are just so fucking irritating. I hate the fact that you have my mobile number, and you always choose to sms me or whatsapp me, when you can bloody well email me. Draw the line between personal and work! the mobile phone is personal, email is work.

Manager. manager is busy all the time. manager is pregnant. manager has a family. manager has lots of backlogs. manager has no time for me. and i have to swim on my own. fine. manager is useless. manager is of no help to me. manager please increase my pay. seriously the amount of shit and the amount of work I do for you. do you think you are paying me well enough? do you think everyone is as fucking nice as me. to help cover and to clear backlogs. to stay back and to do work when you don’t often stay back? you say you are sorry you have no time to guide me. but then you want to micro manage and follow up on every damn thing i do. how contradicting is that. you have no time to guide me and leave me to do stuff on my own, then you want to keep tabs on everything i do. that is so suffocating. if you think you can’t trust me enough to do the job well and follow up, then don’t give me so many things to do and micro manage me. I don’t deserve that.

other managers. if you know you are going to need people. can you bloody well tell me earlier. you don’t tell me the last minute and expect me to miracously produce some high calibre resume for you! you say you are urgent. hello. everyone is as fucking urgent as you okay. and you can be nicer by that big leap if you are so hardpressed and you are asking a favour from me. damn it.

and at the end of it all. I just want to say that. I believe even if I were left home alone when I was young, I will still turn out to be the fine young lady that I am now. I should not have gone there ever in the first place! FML now.

love,

Tricia